WOW.. a day has already escaped me. Day 359+

It has not quite been a week since Bill left and it truly is going by fast. I will say I am overly busy and this weekend took its toll on me. I did not blog yesterday on purpose. I truly cut that out of my day due to time constraints. Beware, I have a feeling it may happen every weekend.  LOL
After this weekend, I now realize I am up for one heck of a challenge raising the kids alone. I will now add single mothers to my prayer list, they are amazing!

The kids have adjusted well, they were asking when Daddy would skype again since we have not talked for the last couple of days. He did call yesterday, but I was not home. Sal was home and apparently was able to chat for a minute with his dad. He of course, did not tell me dad called. I figured out he called after arriving home yesterday in between soccer games and checked the caller id. I recognized a base number but not whom or where on base it came from. This usually means a DSN call to the base. This is a free call for Bill. It means he uses a DSN in country and then calls another DSN here stateside and they patch the call to the house. Gotta love government operators here!
This brings up what happens when you realize you missed a call. Most likely the only call you were going to receive for the day and you missed it. This is one of the WORST feelings you get when they are gone. Knowing you missed an opportunity to hear their voice, to share a moment, to say I love you. I hate this feeling the most. You will then attach yourself to the house for the next couple of days waiting and hoping he gets another opportunity and you put all outside activities on hold. When they leave you promise you are not going to do this. You swear to yourself you will move about and you tell yourself you have a cell, so it is easier for them to reach you.... but even with a cell.... it happens.  You miss the calls....... you miss them and it sucks....you try not to cry or feel disappointed, but you do. You run through a mountain of emotions and then try to hold onto the thought that they will call back... real soon. This is not always the case and then if they do not call back for days, you suffer silently inside. You rerun what you did during that phone call that made you miss it. You try and rehash how you could have let such a thing happen. Yep, you pretty much punish yourself emotionally until you hear from them. When you finally do get to hear from them.... all that pining is gone. You just feel loved and happy and overjoyed. You get to hear their voice, share that moment, say I love you.
Bill called back this morning.......no pining for me :)



Now back to my crazy weekend and first week of being a single mom... it boils down to cooking. Do I have to?????

I am not sure about others, but I am not a huge fan of cooking. It is a chore for me and when I cook for my kids it is definitely a chore that is not appreciated. With that said, can you still be a great mom if you only feed them from the frozen food section? I think today I am going to only shop in it. They seem happiest when eating this form of food, so why work so hard with a home cooked meal. If you have seen my kids, you need not comment on healthy eating habits and the link to obesity. My kids are tiny... I do not see this as a problem. I am thinking maybe the processed foods and whatever injected hormones they may contain might just help my kids. Maybe they will reach the average height for Americans. I think I should try this and submit it as a blind study. Me feeding them this crap would not be out of my laziness or lack of cooking, but for the good of science. I think I like this outlook. I will measure each child today for baseline measurements and report their progress in the coming months.  If you are a neighbor and feel sorry for my kids, feel free to feed them. I am sure then you will see what I mean about the lack of appreciation they have for foods. They will either graciously decline what you offer or swallow whole with no tasting involved.


With that I sign off, to go check out just how many meals I can get away with.. I believe I am set... even PB&J is available pre-made and FROZEN!!!!!!!