Cursing???? a form of communication everyone understands. Day 352+

I am thinking that on the mom o meter I am at my best only average. I have good days and bad days and today started out decent enough and then they came home from school. You know they must have given them something at school, they were my kids when they left this morning but I am not sure whose kids they are this evening. If Bill was here, I would completely blame him for these kids. He is not,  so alas, the blame must be on the school.  I keep talking and asking them to do their normal after school routine...for some reason I must be speaking in a foreign language because they keep staring at me in a blank manner. Thus far this evening, I have said stop it 20 times, eat your food and quit playing with it 10 times, go get dressed for sports 5 times, do your homework 30 times. I cannot even count how many times I have said sit still. They continue to do what they want until it happens.. Until I speak the universal language of cursing!! That is right, I had to curse, an explicit had to come hurling out of my mouth at my kids in order for them to actually snap out of their obnoxious haze of ignoring mom. I hurl some doozies and yep this one was a good one.... in my head I can hear myself yelling stop don't do it, but ya know what.. I feel so much better after these horrible words come out. I wonder if I would not do this if it were not so effective at getting my kids attention. Who knew a four letter word had so much power?  My kids know these are bad words and ones not to repeat. Thank goodness they understand this. I will apologize later for my word choice, but for now...... the words wielded their power and if I apologize they lose their effectiveness. Now, that I have shared one of my not so good mommy moments, remember in an earlier post I said I do not want to be judged... I am just sharing.

On to Bill, we skyped this morning and it was great. He looks good and even in a grainy picture I knew he was smiling.... he shows a thousand teeth when he smiles.  I am hoping at some point he can get on when the kids are home. They miss Dad and the above listening issues are in direct response to him being gone. Each and every one of my kids is trying real hard to see just how far they can push the rules. They are negotiating every rule that we have set as parents. I only hope that as a single parent I am strong enough to win. I would hate for me to threaten with ... "wait til Dad skypes...." . I am thinking this will not be as effective as "wait til dad gets home".


Bill- I am awaiting some form of reassurance in regards to your personal protective gear. I noticed today on skype you were not wearing your helmet nor your flak.... I do not care if you think you are safe inside camp. I am thinking that if you must wear your pistol at all times then you should also be wearing the protective gear. Yes.. I did see your pistol and your holster today!!!!
Stay safe.... we love you!!!